2018 Resolutions.

2018 Resolutions.

I’ve always liked the idea of New Years resolutions, even though I’m not usually one to actually stick to them! I think it’s the thought of a New Year being such a good time to make some changes (even though really these changes can be made anywhen). As 2017 comes to its close I find myself inadvertently thinking of what I want for next year, however I also realise that I never thought I’d be where I am now at the end of last year.

I have some goals in mind for next year, some the same as last year, some new ideas. I thought maybe writing them here would help me actually stick to them this year, knowing this is on the internet for people to see!

So, in no particular order:

  • SPANISH. Keep learning, no excuses. Be at a comfortable conversational level.
  • Continue along my vegan journey.
  • Notice and be grateful for the small things.
  • Keep photographing what I love.
  • Keep positive, don’t sweat the small stuff, and KYCU*

However, I also think it’s important to keep in mind that life does sometimes get in the way and as much as I didn’t expect to be where I am now last year, this time next year I’m likely to be thinking the same thing. It’s good to have an idea of where we want to be in a years time, but we musn’t let it drag us down when things don’t go to plan. Everything in life adds to the journey, and as long as we continue to learn, we continue to grow. We’re all only stardust anyway!

*Keep your chin up

You are not defined by your job.

You are not defined by your job.

Let’s stop defining a person by their job.
A person is so much more than what they do to pay their bills.
The first thing we ask people when we meet them is “so what do you do?,”. It’s understandable as it’s an easy ice-breaker and a way of getting to know somebody; however it can also leave people panicking, trying to justify their current job situation to a stranger or new acquaintance whilst simultaneously thinking that the person they’re talking to will judge them on this and will not think very highly of them. Just me? Coming from a fairly well respected job, to finding myself unsure of my job status has caused me so much worry about what I will tell people when the time comes. I even find myself justifying my current situation to myself!

Just because someone’s job isn’t thought of as “super important”, it doesn’t mean it isn’t nor does it in any way reflect who they are as a person. Every job is important. Every single one. Who got up super early to serve you your coffee this morning? Who makes sure you had a brilliant experience dining out with your loved ones, whilst sacrificing their weekend with theirs? Who served you that drink on a Friday evening after a long week and listened to you drunkenly moan all evening for minimum wage?

Someone could be in a minimum wage ‘dead end’ job, but be fluent in a few different languages, travelled the world or just be an absolute ray of positive light! Not everyone has to be career driven, as long as you have enough to keep a roof over your head and food on your table, IT DOES NOT MATTER!

As I’m writing this post, I’m sitting in a popular coffee chain and cant help overhearing the baristas discussing how people always ask them “so what else do you do?,” referring to studying etc, and how annoying it is that people presume that working full time from morning to evening in a coffee shop just can’t be all they do! I cant help but smile to myself as I type away on this post; I’m not alone in this.

My job caused me such high anxiety I was in a constant miserable mood, my relationship was suffering and I felt like a ball of negativity. I felt like crying when my alarm sounded each morning, and was panicking about work on my days off. I started experiencing panic attacks, something I’d never had before, and just knew I couldn’t continue. Finally getting the ovaries to leave this job felt like a massive weight had been lifted, and my universe began to shift. I still may not know what I want to do, but I know I’m in a much better position than I was. Your mental health is so much more important than any job.

So next time someone asks “so what do you do?,” take a deep breath, and remember whatever your answer is, it doesn’t define who you are. (Unless you’re a hitman, in which case I take it back).

Well I’ve got to start somewhere..

Well I’ve got to start somewhere..

“Sometimes I start a sentence and I don’t even know where it’s going, I just hope I find it along the way,”-Michael Scott [The US Office]. This is pretty much how I’m starting this blog. Right now I don’t know what this will turn into, but hopefully my passion for writing and lack of understanding where I fit in the world will come together to create somerthing mildly interesting.

I’m trying to find my way, to figure out what it is I really want to do with this life I’ve been given; but the more I’ve searched it’s lead me to the conclusion that nobody really knows. We all just float around hoping everything will fall into place whilst pretending it already has on social media. There’s pressure put onto us from a young age that we should just know what job we want, and expected to follow social norms into meeting ‘the one’ getting married,  buying a house and having two kids. But what if we don’t know? What if we don’t want those ‘norms’? What if we do want those norms but they’re just not happening?!

I’m trying to find some more balance in my life, and fill it with true happiness, love and light. Letting go of what I think is expected of me and embracing change. This is my road to balance.